I was diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) 6 months after I got married. But I’m not sure when it started. My OB-Gyn made me take birth control pills for 6 months to regulate my menstrual period. My usual cycle is around 38 days, which is not normal. She also made me take Metformin to control my insulin level. I am not diabetic but women with PCOS tend to be chubby, fat, overweight or obese. Our body does not handle insulin very well and it is very hard for us to lose weight. So people who think that we should watch what we eat don’t know what they are saying. I tried going on a diet and even went as far as only eating one meal a day. But my weight could only go down to a certain weight limit and would no go down further. People around me would constantly ask if I was already pregnant that I felt pressured to have a baby. Honestly, I didn’t care when I’d have a baby because I know God has plans and He will give it to us at the right time. Since I didn’t want the pressure, I stopped taking the medicines and stopped dieting. This time, I was only gonna trust that God will give us one when He wants to because nothing is impossible with Him.
One night, I dreamt that I was pregnant. It felt so real that when I woke up I got a little frustrated. So I went to work feeling under the weather. I’ve been feeling a little hot lately. My colleague insisted that I must be pregnant because she’s also not feeling well and could probably feel what I feel. Ha! When I was on my way home, bought a home pregnancy test just for the heck of it. I was a few days delayed anyway. My period is not normal so a delay was not a big deal.
Took the test and the colors were smudged that I couldn’t read the result. I was bummed because it was expensive. I bought another one, took the test… and there was a faint second line. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. I thought maybe the result is invalid because the second line was very faint. I took another test, and this time it was negative. Pfft. I bought another one and waited till the morning after to take the test because they said that the first urine in the morning is the most concentrated. I woke up at 4 am without help from the alarm clock. I took the test… and it was positive. I didn’t know what to think. I had to go see the doctor to confirm!
So, yes, the doctor said I was pregnant and the thought has not sunk in yet. Probably because I don’t see any changes in my body yet, except that my boobs hurt a little. And I don’t have a baby bump yet. Just a bump. Ha!
I know that God was in this process because He gave us this gift at the right time. My husband has not had a stable job for a year due to masters, Japanese classes and setting up our laundry business. Recently, he got accepted in a wonderful company and will start his work on Monday. I guess God was just waiting for us to be at a certain state before He finally blessed us with a baby.
My PCOS did not stop Him from being Himself… powerful and amazing!